tis the season

this time of year most people are either really happy and into the holidays, or feel really alone and could care less. i don't think i fall into either of these two, well not yet anyway. i am pretty happy and excited to be going home for thanksgiving; to see my dad and my good friends again (those who are left), to eat lots of really good food, and just get away from the same old everyday routine i'm stuck in here. as it gets closer to christmas, i don't know how things will be and how i will feel, i just hope it doesn't end up being the latter of the two aforementioned things.

i don't know. i'm still really lost in my emotions and how i feel in my life currently . it's almost as if i am a zombie. part of me is fine with not wanting to care; the other part cares way too much. that part is my major downfall, and i can't ever do anything about it.

anyway, enough of all that crap. thought i would just update real quick. i am stoked on thanksgiving, so that's all i will concentrate on right now.

this is a picture of the view of my street a couple weeks ago. i am still so amazed at all the colors i get to see here. so beautiful.